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Fabricated Reality versus Common Sense and Truth

Last spring, I read about an interview on a site where James Wickstrom, an American radio presenter, interviews Rabbi Abe Finkelstein on Judaism. Someone had made a word-for-word report of it. The interview was appalling and insane without parallel. When my own life is determined with common sense, it is difficult to imagine the intentional wickedness and destruction that Rabbi Finkelstein brings up in the interview. For the first time in my life, I thought seriously that maybe the Jews are indeed God’s chosen people. However, they are not the chosen ones in the sense that they imagine themselves to be.  They reveal the wisdom of the world, which is an abomination to God. The most powerful message of the interview is the idea presented in Romans 1:22: “Though claiming to be wise, they became fools.”

I was quite surprised to find that interview on Youtube because the videos criticizing Jews disappear from Youtube pretty quickly. I thought that it has to be there for a reason, because it had kept its place since April 2017. The deeper I dug into the video, the stronger I felt that the interview was not so much about Jews and Zionists and their conspiracy against humanity, but about the non-Jewish white race that Finkelstein calls Goyim-cattle. They are Jewish (Zionist) underlings and errand boys (useful idiots), who are ready to act against the interests of their own countries and communities.

I read discussions about Rabbi Finkelstein and people said that he is a fictitious person. Many Jews say that all the prejudices of anti-Semitic people since the Middle Ages have been collected in that interview and it should not be taken seriously. However, if the facts of the interview are quite correct, as has been proven, how can you dismiss the interview with a shrug?

Israeli historian and visionary Yuval Noah Harari, who enjoys great popularity among Jews (Zionists), says that the most important attribute of man is imagination and his ability to invent credible stories and make other people believe in them. When Yuval Harari talks about imaginative, plausible stories, he is by no means talking about harmless white lies that people invent to save their skin in more or less trivial everyday disputes. He speaks of systematic misrepresentation of the truth in purpose of advancing one’s own goals. These include e.g. warmongering False-Flag provocations. So this is not about harmless storytelling but, at worst, outright terrorism.

The Jews (Zionists) want their own world, just as Islamists want to establish a caliphate in honor of Allah. I read from a source that this was the reason why the Jews (Zionists) killed Jesus: They wanted their own kingdom, but Jesus only had the kingdom of God to offer. Finkelstein boasts that the Jews (Zionists) can do what they want and they are not held accountable for their actions, because whites are cowards. Whites do not, and cannot, do anything to stop Zionist efforts to conquer the world. The Jewish (Zionist) books (Talmud) state that they will take over the world! The tale of the white race is over. That’s why Finkelstein speaks so openly about the Jewish agenda that everyone would face the facts as facts.

These efforts to conquer the world began in the days of Columbus. According to Finkelstein, Columbus was a Jew, who began to seek new places to live after the Jews (Zionists) had been kicked out from Spain in 1492. It is said that Columbus began colonialism and imperialism, which is still in practice. Today, imperialism is no longer called imperialism. It has a new name, globalism, which is used to justify intervention in the policies of sovereign states and depriving them of their assets and natural resources.

Finkelstein says that of all the organizations founded by the gentiles, churches were the first to be taken over by Jews (Zionists). They started with infiltration into the Catholic Church. Rabbi Finkelstein asks a rhetorical question: Why do you think the popes and cardinals use Kippah, the Jewish (Zionist) religious head cover. He goes on to say that whites never figure this out. No one studies or thinks for themselves. Therefore, gentiles become lifelong underlings and errand boys of the Jews (Zionists).

It is proven that Jews (Zionists) murdered the Russian czar and started the Bolshevik Revolution. The Soviet Union was their social experiment in which they first carried out the idea of communism. Communism is the socio-economic ideology of the Jewish Karl Marx, real name Moses Mordechai Levi, whose goal is a classless and equal social model that is based on common ownership.

Finkelstein says that the lower classes in the Soviet Union were led to believe that communism would lift them out of misery, but from the beginning it was intended to bring the rich to the level of the poor. The Jews (Zionists) collected for themselves the wealth of the people and ruled them. This is what happened in the Soviet Union and it is happening right now under our eyes all over the world.

Finkelstein says the Jews started and supported the women’s liberation movement. Initially, it was about getting women to work so they could be taxed. But the women’s movement (feminism) proved to be an effective way to dismantle families (the basic unit of societies) and, in particular, to get children to school where they could be brainwashed according to Jewish (Zionist) intentions. The women’s movement is the best tool for Jewish (Zionist) divide-and-rule- policy.

Wars are, according to Finkelstein, the most productive activity to make money. In addition, cattle must be thinned from time to time. The Jews (Zionists) call it theater of war, because they find it amusing to see that their greatest enemies, the white race and the Arabs, are destroying each other and they are making a lot of money during the process. Finkelstein says that people have the right to make money wherever they can. If no one is stopping them, and it is not specifically forbidden, it is allowed. In Western democracies, this kind of thinking is increasingly common. Christian ethics and morals, which have previously held societies together, are falling apart.

Wars are one cash machine that guarantees inexhaustible cash flow. We should not forget other pyramid scams, the latest of which is the climate change agenda, which aims to keep people in fear and guide their choices in an increasingly unnatural direction. In addition, all kinds of industry has been invented, such as the holocaust industry, which is based on sheer history distortion. In some places, impartial research into World War II is prohibited by law. It has channeled trillions of dollars of German and American taxpayers’ money to Israel. In the interview, Finkelstein states that what is decisive in holocaust is that Jews (Zionists) have been persecuted throughout the ages, so that they are entitled to compensation, or free money.

The clearest example of Jewish (Zionist) practices is the case of Jeffrey Epstein that has got media coverage recently. The case is presented as if Epstein was an individual pedophile with own network. Epstein is described as a lonely millionaire, whose relationship with Ghislaine Maxwell offered him access to social networks that he himself lacked. Who thinks they were both Jewish (Zionists) and Mossad (Israeli intelligence) agents? The purpose of their pedophile ring was to gather aggravating evidence by which Jews (Zionists) were able to blackmail world politicians into making decisions that were favorable to them. This is directly from “The Protocols of the Learned Elders of Zion”, which I summarize in the article “A Jewish State?”. This action plan has also been claimed to be fiction, but we see it being implemented around the world.

Homo Deus

Yuval Noah Harari paints a picture of the future, replacing humanism with a new religion he calls dataism. In Harari’s imagination, Homo sapiens’ brain function can be described as biological algorithm that can be replaced by information networks that in the future can probably be controlled by ‘god’s chosen people’ according to their own intentions. The man of the future is, in Harari’s imagination, the new, improved, and superior human species, Homo Deus, who is likely to obey his master’s orders.

When I watch Yuval Harari’s speeches and interviews I keep in mind that he is the product of his own society, where the only reality is this illusory world registered by our five senses and brains. His vision of the future is based entirely on the material world as if man were merely a sack of bones and flesh, which the brain directs. However, the human heart is the center of everything and its electromagnetic field is 5,000 times stronger than that of the brain. The heart has its own brain, which sends more impulses to the brain (head) than head sends impulses to the heart.

In my opinion, the current and future problems of the world are not related to the tools we use to make our work more efficient, but to leadership of humanity. In the animal kingdom leaders of elephant herds, for example, are looking for better grazing grounds, where everyone uses the resources one needs and no more, also the leaders. They are respected. Humanity is guided by totally corrupt practices. Nowadays, the value of leaders seems to be determined by their wealth and how large a gap it creates to the ordinary people, whose problems they are supposed to solve.

God Takes Care Of His Own

When the Jews murdered the Russian czar in 1917, Russia was a deeply Christian country. There were thousands of churches and monasteries throughout the country, and Christianity culminated in the reign of the czar: the czar was considered God’s representative on earth. The Bolsheviks almost completely destroyed this heritage. Churches and monasteries were destroyed, churchmen were killed or taken to concentration camps, and the people were brainwashed for 70 years into atheism. As the Soviet Union collapsed and the Jewish (Zionist) regime fled the country, it left a void behind, because there was nothing to adhere to. However, only about 6% of the population considered themselves to be secular atheists.

President Vladimir Putin, who took office after the collapse of the Soviet Union, filled this void with Christian ethics. He strongly supported Orthodox Christianity, the destroyed state church in Russia. New churches rose like mushrooms in the rain. Putin has said that policy-making requires a common value base that serves as a reference framework for different actors. This is simply common sense. Currently 80% of Russians consider themselves to be Christians, and the number is growing.

I don’t think that the state forces people to become Christians. Christian consciousness is simply the natural state of man and it is not a religious phenomenon. In Christian ethics, people internalize the most important doctrine of our existence: Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and your neighbor as yourself. (Matthew 22: 37-40)

That is why Putin is an eyesore to Jews (Zionists) and their underlings. Sanctions are being imposed on Russia, but these seem to harm more foreign powers than Russia. Russia has succeeded in creating completely new industries by emphasizing self-sufficiency and domestic production. Despite (or due to) sanctions, the Russian economy is growing faster than the economies of Europe’s largest countries. The GDP adjusted for purchasing power in Russia is predicted to become the world’s 5th highest this year, taking place before Germany.

The ethics of Christianity was the foundation of National Socialist Germany and Adolf Hitler made his goal to eliminate activities that were destructive to the society or to the morality of the people. It was seen as fascism by the ruling elite and was destroyed. China has followed the same principles as Hitler in its politics, that is, it has adopted from the West only practices that have promoted people’s intellectual capital and prosperity. If China had acted differently, I do not think it would have been able to lift its population of over billion people out of misery as quickly as has happened.

Transforming World – Christ Consciousness

The attempts of the Jews (Zionists) to conquer the world will fail as miserably in the West as they did in the Soviet Union. This is because, contrary to what Rabbi Finkelstein says in the interview, the “Goyim-cattle” is not made up of stupid people and cowards. They are opportunists, just like Jewish Zionists, and they want to be on the winning side. Until now, Jews (Zionists) have had the cutting edge. However, I believe that people will find the divine side in themselves simply by listening to their intuitive hearts.

The traditional patriarchal concept of God, according to which God is father above all, separate from us, was born to answer questions that arose in humans a thousand (or thousands of) years ago. To understand the changes taking place in the world today, we need to update our concept of God and other concepts for the new millennium.

One of the most intriguing features of the Secret-movie is that Aladdin’s magic lamp, the latest results in quantum physics, religious beliefs and everyday practices intertwined to portray the intellectual energy field in which we live under the law of attraction. This intellectual energy field is what we call God. In Chinese philosophy, this energy field consists of two opposing, complementary basic forces Yin (feminine) and Yang (masculine), in which dualism becomes apparent. All things have both the seed of Yin and Yang. They are constantly striving to balance and become one.

In most parts of the world, Yin and Yang energies have been kept separate. It has created an experience of separation, alienation and exclusion. Spiritual teachers have not spoken much about this. However, a couple of weeks ago I found a video on Youtube, in which Christina Lopes depicts this very clearly.

We think similarly, but we use different terminology.  She talks about the second, third and fifth dimensions of consciousness. For me, the second and third dimensions are levels of ego consciousness (awareness). Christina Lopes says that the fifth dimension is Unity Consciousness, which is universal consciousness. I’m talking about Christ consciousness, or consciousness of the universe, which is oneness.

Unity consciousness is not mass consciousness. Christina Lopes speaks in the video 5th Dimension Is Here that our body is made up of 40 trillion cells, all of which are sentient beings. They all have a role to play and are consciously cooperating with each other. Intelligent people should also find channels to consciously cooperate with each other for the common good.

Christina Lopes thinks this is difficult for people because most people are so locked into the second and third dimensions, the ego consciousness level. Until now, God has allowed ego-consciousness to work simultaneously with higher levels of consciousness. There is a reason for this: God has used all means to create a divine connection between people.

However, the vibrational frequency of our planet (Schuman resonance) is changing and this has also spiritual effects. The Higher vibrational frequency no longer supports lower levels of consciousness, but unity and cooperation. People have to adapt to this. It’s like God – the intellectual energy field we live in – wants to shake off the burdensome elements of the world. Christina Lopes compares this cleansing to a dog that shakes itself when rising out of water: after a few vigorous shakes, its coat is dry.

In order to reach the level of Christ consciousness, we need to activate our internal navigator. It means we must break free from brain-centered science-emphasizing intellectual thinking and focus on the intuition of the heart. By listening to intuition, we manage a radar that brings to our consciousness things that five senses cannot detect, and which cannot be perceived merely by intellectual thought.
 
Read also:

A Jewish State?
Communism, Capitalism, and Jew World Order
We have no human rights
It Is Time for People to Take Responsibility for Their Actions
Holy Spirit = New World Order
One World Religion (NWO)

Interview with Rabbi (Abraham) Abe Finkelstein about Jewish control of the world

Jukka Ojala (Vastavalkea): Äly ei yksin riitä totuudellisuuden punnintaan

Russian Metropolitan Hilarion: Christian Future of Europe

Mark Weber: Fraudulent Nazi Quotations

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When I was in China in 2005, I heard about a strangest resonance phenomenon when I was watching a television program that told about a “ghost house”.  It was a new apartment building, where people noticed when they moved in that lamps hanging from the ceiling and other hanging objects, and e.g. the water in an aquarium, swung back and forth rhythmically. The authorities and engineers were puzzled as to what caused the phenomenon and after several steps of research, they found a few blocks away a stone processing plant, where the machine operated parallel to the swinging motion of the hanging ceiling lights in the “ghost house”.

The program was in Chinese and I did not fully understand what was the cause of the phenomenon or how the problem was solved. However, the case has risen on my mind every once in awhile when I have been watching videos presenting the resonance phenomenon. After telling the story to my Chinese assistant, she found an article about a similar phenomenon that occurred in Shanghai in 2014.

Also on that occasion, the thing was discovered only after people moved in and started decorating their apartments. Hanging objects swung, measuring devices of decorators had interferences and people felt dizzy. There were cracks on the walls. Someone had nausea and thought that she was pregnant.

People thought at first that the building was not in compliance with the building regulations. However, after careful inspection it was clear that the problems were not due to neglect. The buildings that had problems were part of a group of several buildings and only two of them had problems.

It turned out that the house was vibrating and it was not vibration caused by earthquake. The vibration was caused by a stone processing plant a stone’s throw away, where the machine was operating at the same frequency as the frequency prevailing in the building. The pendulum in the building stopped when the machine was shut down and started when work began in the plant and the machine was turned on.

I do not know how the problem has been settled or if there was a solution. According to the article the options seemed to be low. One solution was to move the stone processing plant to a new location.

When Form or Chaos Grasps the Matter

In the video link “Sound Vibration Creates Form” beneath this article David Icke says that “in the beginning was the word and the word was sound”. This phrase is a variation of the beginning verse of John’s gospel in the Bible, that sounds as a whole like this: “In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.”

In the Bible, the word does not mean the verbal expression that we use to communicate with each other, but the electromagnetic vibration, which is the driving force of everything in the quantum world, divine matrix we are living in.

With our actions, we can create order and harmony or disorder, chaos and dissonance. The energy we produce can bring about internal healing to ourselves and others or collapse our own order or that of others. Joshua 6th in the Old Testament tells, how the Israelites got the walls of Jericho fall down by going round the wall for a week, carrying the Ark of the Covenant, blowing trumpets of rams’ horns. The New Testament tells of the miracles of Jesus and the omnipotence of love.

When we think about icebergs melting and collapsing, we connect the phenomenon with global warming. However, the weathering and collapse of mountains is not limited to icebergs. We can see collapse of mountains and landslides in the Alps and around the world. This may be due to a change in the vibrational frequency of the Earth (Schumann resonance), rather than due to climate change.

What is common to everything is that resonance can be our defeat or victory. Cymatics, the influence of sound waves on matter, is still a rather unexplored area of science. Most of the problems in the world are due to this: in general people do not use consciously the possibilities of electromagnetic energy and its resonance. They act in many respects against the laws of God, the rules of the quantum world.

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thepaper.cn (澎湃新闻): 上海两幢居民楼不时摇晃，原来是与附近石材厂机器“共振” (only in Chinese, Google translate provides an understandable English translation)

Becky Waters: Interesting Facts About Vibration, Sound, And Music
Peter Pettersson: Cymatics – Science of the Future

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Minun uusi vuosi lähti varsinaisesti käyntiin vasta kun sain Kelalta tämän vuoden kuntoutuspäätöksen 18. helmikuuta. Päätös vähän viivästyi, sillä hakemukseni oli kiertänyt asiantuntijalääkärin (Kelan termi) käsittelyssä. Kun sain päätöksen, liikutuksen kyyneleet nousivat silmiini, kuten aikaisempinakin vuosina, kun Kela on järjestänyt minulle kuntoutusta. Kela on saanut viime vuosina niin paljon kuraa päällensä, että haluan nyt kertoa oman kokemukseni:

Aloitin viime vuoden alussa painokevennetyt kävelyharjoitukset Ortonin AlterG-matolla. Harjoitukset olivat hyvässä vauhdissa kun Kela yllättäen ilmoitti kesäkuussa, että kävelyharjoitukset loppuvat vuoden lopussa. Syynä oli yksinkertaisesti se, että Orton ei ole enää Kelan palveluntuottaja. Fysioterapeuttini tekee tosin työtä aivan eri yrityksessä kuin Orton, mutta painokevennettyä kävelyä varten käytämme Ortonin tiloissa olevaa AlterG-mattoa, joka on tällä hetkellä ainoa käytettävissämme oleva laite pääkaupunkiseudulla.

Kela tuntui olevan päätöksessään hyvin ehdoton, eikä asia viime kesänä edennyt suuntaan, eikä toiseen kun yritin sitä selvittää. Emme kuitenkaan antaneet asian häiritä, vaan teimme täysillä harjoituksia. Kun loppuvuodesta oli aika antaa kuntoutuspalaute, kirjasimme siihen yksityiskohtaisesti, miten kävelyharjoitukset olivat edenneet. Kirjoitin hakemukseeni selkeästi, miten hyödyin harjoituksista ja hain harjoituksille jatkoa, vaikka virkailijat olivat ilmoittaneet minulle ja fysioterapeutille, ettei AlterG-kävelyharjoitukset Ortonissa jatku vuodenvaihteen jälkeen. Minulla oli kuitenkin tunne, että harjoitusten on jatkuttava ja nimenomaan painokevennettynä kävelynä AlterG-matolla, sillä se on tehokkain ja minun tapauksessani ainoa kuntoutusmuoto vahvistaa liikunnan avulla hermoratoja. Kun Kelan lääkäri puolsi harjoitusten jatkamista asia oli selvä.

Mitä tästä opimme? Kelakin saattaa pyörtää päätöksensä positiivisessa mielessä, jos perusteet ovat hyvät. Viimeisen kahdenkymmenen vuoden aikana minulla on ollut vain kerran tunne, että Kelan virkailija yritti tulla puhelinlankoja pitkin minua henkilökohtaisesti uhkailemaan. Erityisesti näissä tilanteissa maltti on valttia. Ei koskaan pitäisi antaa itsensä provosoitua. Asioiden etenemistä edistää se, että hahmottaa kokonaisuuden ja pitäytyy tiukasti tosiasioissa.

Jokaisella on oikeus odottaa byrokraateilta terveen järjen käyttöä, vaikka joskus tuntuu, että virkailijoilta on järjen käyttö kielletty. Tämä johtuu kenties siitä, että rivivirkailijoiden on määrä toimeenpanna esimiestensä laatimia säännöksiä ja päätöksiä. Siinä korostuu enemmän sisälukutaito kuin itsenäinen ajattelu. Virkailijoiden pitäisi kuitenkin pystyä myös ajattelemaan milloin ja mitä sääntöä ja määräystä on tarkoituksenmukaista kulloinkin soveltaa, jotta toiminnan tavoite toteutuu, sillä sehän on kokonaisuuden kannalta kuitenkin tärkein asia.

Päättäjät ovat monessa suhteessa rapauttaneet systeemin ja joillekin hyvinvointipalvelut ovat pelkästään keino kartuttaa henkilökohtaista varallisuutta. Uskon kuitenkin, että Kela yrittää mahdollisuuksiensa rajoissa toteuttaa alkuperäistä tarkoitustaan, eli pitää yllä kansan hyvinvointia, mitä varten laitos on perustettu. Pidän tämän mielessäni kävelyharjoituksia tehdessäni.

Numerology and gematria are doctrines based on the notion that like colors that are light vibrating at different frequencies, numbers and letters (shapes) are also energy vibrating to their own frequency. The number 666, the mark of the beast, which is associated with Satan and life-destroying forces and which comes from the Bible, is based on this notion.

Gematria has evolved from Hebrew and Greek languages, where each letter is also a number. The origin of the word Gematria is said to be the Greek word γεωμετρία, geōmetriā (geometry), but some scholars see the origin in the Greek word γραμματεια, grammateia, knowledge of writing. In any case, it is the language of form with Platonic Solids and Sacred Geometry as the clearest examples.

The ancient Greeks and all the philosophers of old tradition emphasized the importance of geometry and numbers. According to them, philosophically guided numerical studies lead the mind to the world of abstract order and toward the state of understanding, which the Greeks called ‘nous’ (νοῦς or νόος), divine understanding. This understanding was understood as a state of mind now referred to as intuition.

The Hebrew and Greek numbers (letters) have been used to develop the gematria of English language, the numerical values of the Latin alphabets. There are many ways to calculate the value of letters in numerology, but here I am focusing on the gematria that is nearest to the Christian tradition. In English gematria, each letter has a value of 6 multiplied by the number, the letter has in alphabetical order. Thus, the numeric value of the letter U for example is 6 * 21 = 126.

I do not know, how the formula has been created and why the multiplier of each letter is 6. Both in Hebrew and Greek languages the name Jesus has a numerical value of 888. If the multiplier were 12, which some see as more natural division of the universe, the numerical value of the name Jesus in English gematria would also be 888.

Number 8 is associated with abundance, prosperity, authority and infinity. The number 888 includes all one-digit even numbers 2,4,6 and 8. The Chinese people have almost an obsessive relationship to the number 8. Number 8 has two perfect circles on top of each other. The upper circle is our connection to the spiritual reality, where everything is perfect. The lower circle reminds us that we are spiritual beings having human experiences.

With a multiplier of 6, the name Jesus in English gematria is 444. Lucifer has also a numeric value of 444. Dynamo is 432. When it comes to sound frequencies, 432 Hz resonates directly with the universe.

Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit give both the value of 906. Number 9 resonates with eternity, compassion, generosity and empathy.  Zero strengthens the vibration of the surrounding numbers, but it is also the alpha and omega, the beginning and the end, which signifies the divine creative power. It signifies oneness and wholeness at the same time. Number 6 resonates with peace and balance, as well as with the sense of responsibility, honesty and integrity. It is connected to parenthood, home and family. It inspires us to protect, teach, and nurture one another. Number 6 brings emotional depth, self-sacrifice, and empathy.

Interpretation of numbers can be searched on the Internet using the search words ‘master number’ or ‘angel number’. The interpretation of numbers is own kind of art, but most relevant is that numbers and letters are energy vibrating at different frequencies. When we think about Jesus, it creates certain kind of energy.

When Jesus urged people to pray in His name, I believe that He did not mean verbal expression, but the feeling of His presence that is electromagnetic energy. He encouraged us to become a part of Him, to embrace His state of mind, Christ consciousness, and the high vibrational frequency of love.

Jesus said that no one would come to the Father than through Him. That is through Christ Consciousness. People can deceive with their words and also pretend feelings. By doing so one can achieve short-term gains, but eventually it means that people are first and foremost deceiving themselves, because they can not deceive God. The coulisse will collapse sooner or later.

When I came to faith, my brother told me that many people use the Bible as their handbook, so that when they open it up somewhere, they get a verse that speaks to them just in that specific situation. I immediately tried this method myself. These are the first verses I read in the Bible after I came to faith:

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A Matter of Truth.com: Gematria and 666
English Gematria Calculators
sonicgeometry.com

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We have a year of the Earth Pig before us (5.2.2019 – 24.1.2020). As an animal pig has been so important in China that a Chinese character with the meaning of home and family has a pig under a roof (pig = 豬, home or family = 家). I am an Earth Pig from 1959 and I feel that the coming year will be my year. Not only a feeling inside me points to that, but also the past decades. All the pig years – 1971, 1983, 1995 and 2007 – have been some kind of turning points in my life.

They have not been milestones in the sense that I would have achieved particular success in those years, but they have been turning points, in which my spiritual growth and independence have taken a new direction.

When the pig year started in 1971 I was 11 years old. My mother had died a few months earlier and I and my siblings moved to a foster home. When I had no parents I felt that I, only myself was accountable for my actions in every respect. As a child and in the early years of my youth, I could never indulge in my passions or temptations and go with the flow. I wanted to control everything in my life.

When I started my first love affair, this tight self-control caused a huge dissonance within me that led to my disease and ended the relationship. My severe physical disability forced me to look at myself and the world from a new perspective. The feeling of independence and responsibility strengthened and in the pig year 1983 I moved to my first own home, where I was able to carry out my true self. Shortly thereafter I came to faith and the Bible became the bedrock of my life.

My belief in Christ healed me mentally. I was surrounded by most delightful, tangible loving energy. I was “high”. I felt I was floating. People experience something similar when they fall in love. I no longer saw the world and other people as a threat, but people were more or less lost sheep. I was primarily responsible for myself, but my new insights made me see my own responsibility for humanity. Previously, I was more or less cast adrift, and I didn’t believe I was able to significantly improve my situation. With my new attitude, I focused my energy on conscious management of my life.

My relationships improved (except to my brother, although I came to faith because of him, but it’s another story). I revived my friendship with André. About a year after I became a committed Christian, my speech improved spontaneously (I write about it in the article “Transforming World”). When I was able to talk to people I begun my studies: first in a people’s college in Finland, then in Denmark and Germany. In 1987 I got to the University to learn German as a major subject. The second year brought Chinese to my program. I got an electric wheelchair to move faster from place to place.

At the Goethe Institute, I learned about a university in Germany with German-language translator degree programs. In addition, the university trained Chinese translators. I did not hesitate a moment to apply for studies there. Even before I became disabled I wanted to become a translator. The only problem was money, but I believed that after I had got a place, the funding for the studies would be arranged in one way or another.

(Almost) everything went as planned. André was an invaluable help, when I was settling in Germany. Our friendship, however, was like a thorn in my flesh, for over the years I had noticed that we had no real connection with each other. André emphasized that we were “just friends,” but it was indistinct what that meant. I had let myself fixate in him mentally. A part of me wanted to believe in the ideal image I had created about André during our romantic relationship. Another part of me wanted to use common sense and urged me to leave the relationship, when it was still relatively easy.

My relationship with André was like an addiction to me that I couldn’t get rid of, no matter how hard I tried. I was wishing that he would find a partner, after which our friendship would fizzle.
Although I had this kind of wish, I was devastated when André introduced me her new partner in the pig year 1995. The only thing I remember about her was, when I met her for the first time and she was explaining how funny foreigners are when they stutter with strong accent: “I Polish, I Polish.” “I Finnish, I Finnish,” I said dryly.

She was repulsive in my eyes. I did not have the slightest desire to get to know her. This shock broke up my relationship with André completely, which all in all was just a good thing. However, it took me many years to find a new balance.

In the pig year 2007 I moved to a new, bigger apartment. I had completed my studies almost 10 years earlier and did translations under my own trade name. Moving was not just a matter of material, physical world, but it was a spiritual experience for me. I felt that the new, bright space expanded my consciousness. Shortly after moving, I watched the Zeitgeist-movie, which gave my mental and spiritual growth a new approach, although the film itself was extremely distressing. I had no commitments and restraints that prevented me from thinking independently. It gave me a new sense of freedom.

We Create Our Own Reality

In 2012, I watched the Secret movie about the Law of Attraction. I became more aware of my life as a whole and begun to pay attention to the possibility of creating my reality with the power of my thoughts. I paid attention to what kind of energy I had gathered around me and what kind of energy I was creating. I took a large part of my property to a recycling center. Including my radio, which I used to open first every morning after I woke up. It was a problem because listening to the daily news brought me down, which was not a good way to start a day.

Until now I have not listened to the radio for years, but I have been watching TV. I have thought that I need to see how the world and the forces of darkness operate in order to do well-informed, topical conclusions of affairs and to choose my position. In recent months, I have begun to question this notion.

In the 1980s I had no television except for a short period of time, when my sister brought me her television. I gave it back to her, because during the time it was in my use, there was only one documentary film that I thought was worth watching.

I purchased my own telly when smart televisions came on the market and I could watch Youtube videos from there. In recent years, however, I have also watched many kinds of crime series. Now I am disturbed by the saddening feeling they left behind. I could use my time better to raise my energy level. I will concentrate on it this year and in the future.

Apostle Paul writes: “Do not get drunk with wine, which leads to reckless living, but be filled with the Spirit.” (Ephesians 5:18) This was the case, when I was “high” after I came to faith in the 1980s. My energy level, i.e. its vibrational frequency, was high.

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